waiting on the world to change

You know those seasons in life when you wish you where somewhere else? While you wish to be in another season and it's easy to go day after day just "waiting for your boat to come in"... just thinking about when life will be "different". I've been there lately. I don't hate where I am right now. But I would love to be somewhere else. It's easy, as I go about my work and my everyday routine, to wish things were different. Wish I was there... wish I had this... Just waiting on the world to change. It's easy to feel like the everydays in these seasons are insignificant and simply something one must go through before they actually "make it". But, God is a God of purpose and he can definitely see significance in insignificance. So, instead of wishing away this season my life, the ultimate goal (of bringing my creator glory), is better served by me surrendering to HIS purpose for every day. It is better served, if I choose to recognize His purposes exist, if I ask for my eyes to be open to those purposes and I live for something bigger than myself even in the mundane. If He is a God of purpose, He can see purpose in everything and He can make my everyday count.

Dear Friend

Dear Friend,

Just felt the need to say thanks. For so much.

You do so much for me that I don't even see and so much that I forget to thank you for.

How did I ever get someone like you?

Amazing that I didn't even find you, instead, you found me.

Thanks for always being there for me. Even though sometimes I ignore you. I act out of some old bad habits, but you already know why. Sometimes I just make the wrong choices. Sometimes I try to do life without you and I think I'm okay... and then I realize how dull I can be, how stupid.

Still you're always there, the best friend anyone could ever ask for.

Thanks for always listening, even when I don't talk to you, and I should. Thank you for listening to my heart. Thank you for listening to what is going on around me and making me aware. You're always looking out for me.

You've given so much already, but you keep on giving. You have no selfish motives. I never have to question your intentions. You are the truest.

What makes someone truly beautiful to me is who they are on the inside... their character.

Although I haven't seen you yet, I know you're beautiful.

We've been on this path for a while now, but it's a short journey compared to others.

I know you have far to take me yet. It's a relief to know that you will never be the one to leave.

Let me be courageous enough to stay by your side.

Thanks that I never have to be self-conscious around you.

I know you don't look at me with judging eyes.

I've told you how just one friend is all I want, thanks for never misunderstanding me. I never have to explain or think twice. Help me remember not to discount you!

Thanks for continuing to work on my behalf, even when I've given you the cold shoulder.

Thanks for not judging me even when I'm judging you.

Thanks for not treating me as I deserve.

Thanks for covering for me when I looked stupid.

Thanks for holding my hand when I was walking alone.

Only you will ever know how much I need you.

Thankfully, you can see my heart, so you truly know the difference you've made.

I'm glad our relationship won't end in death.

Your death opened the door and your life makes mine a reality.

Thank you, Jesus.

Love,

Anna

the long road

I've been waiting a long time for some...

and even longer for others.

Every time I start to feel bad, I kick myself, because I know others have it worse off than I do.

But, honestly, right now, all I have is faith.

It seems like it won't ever change.

Simply because I can't see hope.

I don't see growth or health or change.

So, It's hard when you can't find the answer to your problem.

Can't seem to fix it.

It's on your mind. all. the. time.

Cause you don't feel like yourself.

People don't know.

Even you don't realize anymore...

But, it's a pressure on your chest.

Please, please, I can't fix it.

Please, please, let me be whole again.

Please, let me see some hope.

walking with new eyes

Had a wake up call today. Thank you God, that I have two arms legs and two legs; a heart that works and a liver that works. Thank you that a still have hair.

Thank you God, for those who don't. Thank you God for those who live without something I take for granted and are better people in spite of their "disability", They love more, appreciate more, and have better attitudes.

My physical issues seem to ruin my world, but really, they are so small and insignificant because I have so much to be grateful for...

We think they're the ones who have it all, we feel pity when we see them, but who really has the fuller life? Who lives life to the full potential? Is it those who have full use of their limbs or those whose hearts are free? When will we learn the outside is just a shell and spending all our time on the exterior doesn't change anything in the grand scheme of things? But, still when I see those, these words came to my mind, " I can't wait for the day when every lame leg will walk"... In your presence. Walking with new eyes, Anna (INSPIRED by: a girl in a electric wheelchair who seemed much more satisfied than the kids with two strong limbs...)