Wednesday, August 11, 2010

God!!

People are dying and we're talking.
We talk so big. But nothing changes.
You say you wanna change the world, turn people around and inside-out how do you expect to do this unless you're absolutely the opposite from this world!
Stop talking and start walking! I couldn't say it loud enough!
WAKE UP!
I can feel the fire inside when I hear the truth. I wanna cry out.
I'm done with all these emotions, without changing anything!
Jesus came to change the world - HE DID change the world.
He didn't die so we could look pretty!
He didn't die to make a church look pretty, perfect and clean!
You talk about not being material and I don't see that in your life, in your fruit!
The people you praise the people you respect, the people you give credit to - are they the ones who bring God fame?!!
God! I'm so tired of being fed-up with all this nonsense. God! I'm so tired of being NOT OKAY THAT WE'RE OKAY with all this!!!
But, I'll never be okay with ordinary!
I'll never be okay with temporary!
Keep me on your path. Let me live the life I feel beating inside.
Let me life it from the inside out.
God...
so much brokenness.
so much loss inbetween.
This feels so pointless - what's the point when we're not changing anything. If we'd get down on our faces and forget about ourselves.
God! I want to look to pour out into others, instead of being so caught up with my life, my situations, my relationships, my desires.
If I never have anything, I will always have you.
Truly, strip away all I hold onto so I have to cling closer to you... God, you're all that's worth it. I'm so done with all this fluff. I'm so done. Jesus, make me live all this from the inside out.

If it's what You want, God, I'll be a visionary.
Dont let me get bitter. But, I want to hate every lie, everything that's not wholly of You.
Let me be someone who evokes change.